ok. i'm making headway in terms of trying to get someone to tell me in so many words what our process is.

it's not that i actually got an answer today; today i found out that DM himself was just as confused as me months ago. his words. his words were prepended with a great big old laugh as if to say oh you are so naive. it's affirming, at least.

it sucks that it's come down to this at least i'm not the only one, but it's something.